Thanks for joining me! My name is Dianna and I live in Pennsylvania with my husband and our dog, Holly. This is my story and I will continue to tell you it bit by bit and sometimes tear by tear. And sometimes I will tell you my story laugh by laugh. Always know that it truly is a work of my heart.
My journey right now takes me through making the decision to place my mom in a personal care home. This is probably one of the most difficult decisions I have ever had to face. I wanted to care for her and keep her safe with me until she passed into our Father’s arms. That, however, was not to be… After eighteen months and numerous health issues, she can no longer be safe in our home without 24/7 care. My husband and I are unable to do that for her.
So, with the love and support of my siblings, mom is going to a wonderful home where she will have many others who will care for her and keep her safe. It just won’t be me anymore. Her life will go on and so will mine, just not the way we both had imagined.
As I visited with her at the hospital Saturday (where she is while the doctors are adjusting her medications) she looked up at me with those beautiful soft brown eyes filling with tears, and said in a soft voice, “Don’t throw me away like an old shoe.”
My heart, already breaking, went to pieces. The feeling of guilt so heavy that the burden of it weighed me down, I began to cry. I have not stopped yet. The tears are not always visible on my face but always in my heart.
Our story continues as family and friends bring me comfort as I learn to live my new life and so does my mom.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Phillipians 4:13
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