Each day brings me more comfort. I know in my head mom is safe. My heart is learning. So many family and friends have reached out to share their experiences with this same heart wrenching decision and how they coped. It is never easy but no one said it would be. I am so grateful for all the support.
Today my calendar verse was, “With God everything is possible.” Mark 10:27 I really feel God’s hand in this situation. He is revealing himself to me more and more every day. Things are falling in place and only God could have made them happen.
Mom is adjusting to living at the home more each day. She is enjoying the company of some old friends and some new ones. She sees my sister every day. She seems to be resting well and eating very well. She is eating things I knew she liked but would not remember she liked so she would not eat them for me. I know not to take this personally. Her brain is working differently in different situations.
I am adjusting too. My routine is different now. Holly is the one greeting me when I get home. She is so happy to see me. We take long walks and play. I did not have time for that before. Supper can be more relaxed as my husband and I are not so food restricted.
Sounds like I have just eased right into this, but believe me, there are moments. I still see her and hear her in my house. I still cry when I least expect it over some tv commercial. My heart is healing but slowly. I still miss my mom living at my home. I still miss caring for her everyday. I still miss our little tiffs that only mothers and daughters can understand. But she is safe. That comforts me.
Calvinsdaughter 